Yellow Fairy book - person 01 Link to heading

This person has two storylines. Most of us do.
The objective “camera” storyline. And the internal one.

For many people, the internal storyline changes.
That is: a story gets better and better.

For some people, the internal storyline has almost no tangents with the objective camera storyline.

This is such a person.

Everyone wants to be loved. Imagine it’s not possible.
Imagine you see OTHER people loving and being loved.

This creates a split in an already split mind.
The split between ACTION and CONSEQUENCE.

For this person a consequence can never be traced back to his (yeah.. it’s a he) own actions. Another defect is:

“Nothing wrong I did.. because my action was triggered by a wrong”

Such a person can steal someone else’s belongings.. and justify it because of the hurt he felt when his cooking wasn’t appreciated.

There are a lot of names of mental disorders. All of them have just one name “ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME ME”

This P1 has always looked for a family.
When he was young it was school. Then it was playing football or hockey. Then it was martial arts. Then it was.. a sect.

He always sought out groups of people.. and always thought he could MANIPULATE them and COME OUT ON TOP.

Being mentally ill is NOT the same as being BRILLIANT and INTELLIGENT. We’ve seen Hannibal Lecter.. and come to think that the idiot must be a genius.. that can play an excellent game of chess and then execute some Mozart on a spinet piano.

The P1 has seen that movie too.
So he takes some music lessons.. and start playing a little bit bad chess.

But he’s a moron.
The actual problem with P1.. is that he can not care about someone.. but himself. He can not THINK about anyone.. but HIMSELF. It’s he. He he he he he.

And the LOOOOONG LOOOOOONG trail behind him of fails.. is not HIS fault. OTHER people did it to HIM.
It’s not HIS fault no one can get along with him.

So, he moves. Breaks up. Change places. Turns pillows.
But the bed is never comfortable.

An now he want to be a TEACHER. He has nothing to offer. No wisdom. No knowledge.

But he wants to teach. Why not music? He doesn’t know what an ‘interval’ is.. but “IS THAT REALLY IMPORTANT???”
Why not just listen to this ’teacher’? He will ask questions like: “Why can’t you just divide the note into half? Wouldn’t that be EXACTLY the MIDDLE!!!”

(tired of P1.. working on P2.. might add some stuff here) BYE